Today is a day folks. Ugh. I woke up feeling and so did my children and so did everyone I experienced driving ridiculously on the road.
There’s a total eclipse coming up. If you look up the spiritual symbolism of it, it means great transformation is coming, all for the good, but that there will be an overwhelming amount of feelings that aren’t so good and it will present for people differently.
One of my favorite things to do is look up the spiritual symbolism of something I notice (it’s as simple as googling that, plus whatever you want the symbolism for, like everything from the moon, to why you might be seeing a squirrel frequently. There’s something about it that I just like to feel the reminder however I can, when I need it, that there’s proof something bigger is going on.
It often gives me hope, or simple reminders that I am pushing through something for a great reason. And I am so glad I read about the upcoming moon events and read all the good that is to come of it, most glad I read that it will be rough leading up to it.
So instead of feeling like what the heck is going on, and frustration, or an overall down, I can continue to try and think of it like great change will be happening.
I’ve also debated on even posting, because of what is happening in the world. Specifically Israel. Anything I can say seems so fruitless.
Things like this and an overall unrest in the world, can really bring me down. The inability to do anything. The fear for my kids’ future in this world. The injustice of things, the sadness of things. I think I feel it on a global scale. And this is when I go into my own google search to bring it back to my faith. To remind myself the promise I made last week, to give it all to God.
It seems harder today. Maybe it’s the moon thing, maybe it’s just a mood I’m not allowing myself, I don’t know, but I’m going to go back to it until it sticks, because what else can I do?
Ironically.. because there’s always irony.. I fell asleep at 7 pm and woke up at 4 a.m. fully rested. I even got a nap in yesterday. I say ironically because usually these poopy feelings happen because I don’t get enough sleep. But I got more than I’m used to and I still have them. Alas I remind myself that the things that are going on in the world have been happening since the beginning of time in one way or another.
And that great transformation really does happen after hard things. Really hard things you go through. And good things, GREAT things are on the horizon. And go on repeat in my head. I wish it were as easy as when we used to fling those sticky hands at a wall and they’d stick. I wish it would stick right away. But even those flop down after awhile.
I guess the moral of the story is, bear with it all this week, great things will come.
It’s always darkest before the dawn. I know, because I was up at that dark hour 😉